Breaking point…

There comes a point in everyone’s life where they can no longer be strong, or weak – it depends on the way you look at it i suppose…

For me that was tonight and i was both at the same time…

I no longer want to be strong for anyone else or be weak in myself, i just want to be and all i want to be is me. I am done trying: to fit the mold, to be accepted, to be what other people think i should be, to conforming to “the” rules. I am me and this is me and if you don’t accept this or approve of who i am then there is no space, for you, in my life.

Tonight i have realized that the only people i need in my life are the ones who accept me for who i am and what i stand for, and if those people are few and far between i would gladly take that over the forced interactions i have to deal with on a daily basis.

What matters in life are the people who would drop anything for you at the drop of a hat, not the ones that are only around when things are going well. If you don’t have these kinds of people in your life then you’re doing things wrong.

Life is not about who you’re with or who you know its about being yourself  and  who will be there in the end when all the rest doesn’t matter

 

 

Love yourself…

This is not a post on how to love yourself, it’s not a step by step process on how to get it right.. It’s about a person who can’t understand what loving yourself means, it’s about a person who cries hearing those words because they have no idea what “love yourself so you can be loved” means because they do love everybody, everybody but themselves…

I love a lot and i love hard, it’s probably at an intensity that most people can’t understand, most of my emotions are, so how can i not love myself? I just can’t seem to grasp the concept of loving yourself – who better than me to see my every flaw, physically, emotionally and mentally?

The step by step guides on this subject make me cringe with the deep philosophical quotes inserted every now again so that people can try make sense of them – we have to remember that however long ago Buddha and the likes lived is very different to the world we have to live in now… There were no super models and no photoshop, no Facebook or twitter, no filters or selfies – back then the world was “real” and such advice was a lot easier to follow than what it is now, because in this day and age nothing seems to be real anymore, not even people.

In a world with millions of people and hundreds of platforms telling us how we should be, how can we ever be happy with who we are let alone love ourselves?

 

“Finding yourself”

Recently i have realised something, there are a lot of people around on the quest of finding themselves, it is made out to be a gallant act of self improvement and enlightenment. So, being me, i stopped, and thought, as well as questioned and have come to the conclusion that most valiant knights on this never ending odyssey, when asked “what does finding yourself actually mean?”have as much of an idea of who they are as what the answer to the question is…

Now, I’m an average person, i will confess i do believe in the “weird spirituality stuff”, “reincarnation” “journeys” etcetera and some may agree and some may not agree with my views – whether you do, or don’t, i think everything should be challenged and if not challenged then at least thought about before snubbed. I would put narrow-minded in a very close proximity to stupidity as one of the worlds worst problems.

So, heres how i see it – finding who you are is a life long process, you can’t know yourself, you change because things change, people change, circumstances change, you are who you are in that exact moment in time and that is all it ever will be – is that moment, until the next one comes along. It is these moments that define us and keep defining us until the day we die – there is no knowing yourself, theres understanding yourself, knowing is absolute and in life there is just no such thing.

Understanding who you are is understanding how you react, understanding your emotions, understanding that only you make you feel the way you do. You are in control of who you are, and once you realise this you will have found what you are looking for.